crud

Been feeling so trapped. I can't wait to find an apartment and move out as soon as I can.
I hate this so much.
At least this weekend has been highly acceptable.
I'm too tired to be witty right now.
Friday we walked probably around 10 miles. Pet the cockatoo at the head shop in Fells Point. Had bubble tea for dinner. Again. Yesterday we gorged on Korean food and I wigged out later that night when I though my friend was dead and the cat's paw emerged from under the bed like a furry ghost tong and touched my foot. Today, after a slight detour that was my fault as usual, we made it to Loch Raven Resevoir and had a picnic by the water. Which was extremely cold. Then while the mood was still fresh, we drove up 95 to the nearest Wawa for gas, food, and memories.
And tonight, after some much needed vandalism has been accomplished and my laundry has been folded, I sit alone in my room. These last 5 weeks would be much easier to weather if I wasn't feeling so shitty about certain situations. But it's not even worth worrying about at this point. I have better things to do.....
I have to be at Station by 8 am for my field trip to Philly. And it's almost 2 am and I don't know why I'm still awake.
At least I have Tuesday to look forward to, when I go home to see my niece, who is supposed to be born tomorrow. 3 years ago I never though that my only brother would be a father so quickly. It's funny how fast people change. How other people can influence each other so much.
It's kind of what I've been feeling. I'm finally doing what I want to do and not worrying about the approval of other people. I'm not going to sit around and pretend to be happy with doing absolutely nothing. Fuck everyone who judges me like that. I don't give a shit anymore.
I gotta get out of here.